my 171st post

(This is an emo most..so dont read)




I've no inspiration to blog..I have nothing to talk about because nothing special is happening in my life..Maybe there are a few, but i cant share it here..Its very personal..If u're my friend, and u want to know, u should just come to me and ask me..Coz i will definitely share all my damn sad stories with u..

Someone actually told me that im not a good friend..But its not just the friend relationship..Its between the friend and a little more than friend relationship..This relationship actually lasted for more than a year..and i asked for a quit because i felt that i couldnt take it anymore..All i get is just suddenly appearance, when he needed me..He would just sms and call to tell me that he wanted to see me..Kept getting blamed, for i dont know what reason, accusing me of breaking promises and hurting him..I never asked for this..He said he wanted it to be this way..Nothing actually happen in this 1 year..Because im conscious that im in a relationship with someone else..
Now im a hundred percent sure i dont really know which is the real u..But i am not sad or depressed because all this happen..Im happy that its finally over, i dont have to worry about another person in my life..

I realized i was never a good friend..nobody ever told me i am..People kept telling me im a good listener and always give good advice..I never thought i was a good friend, because i have no time to spare..Im always busy with something, or lazy to go out..Most of my friends are hi-bye friends..A few friends where i can actually talk to..But its okay..Because i know there're people who care for me(believe or not, but i know there are)..

So much has happened between the one month i did not blog..Mostly confusing stuff..But i remember saying to myself "I will live my everyday with no regrets at all"..And im stil keeping to what i said..Its just sometimes when im too confused, i hesitate a little and think that i regret what i did..after awhile, i realized its over and i cant fix everything i did..So better live with it than to regret it a
lifetime..

There will be times where all of us make stupid mistakes, and often we dont realize it until the day we finally grow away from all those or grow up..And im this person who continuously make stupid mistakes in life, sometimes i grow from my mistake, and sometimes i dont..I dont because i still believe in tat thing/person..U cant tell me whether im right or wrong, unless i say so..